Which Way To Go

  When I was younger, I was always interested in the medical field.  I went from wanting to be a doctor, to nurse, to EMT.  I enjoyed EMT school and the shifts we did on the ambulance and at the hospital!  Now that I'm a mother though, I just don't see myself being able to handle the emergency aspect of being an EMT.  I think I would still be OK with adult Emergency Medicine, but unfortunately you get the children too.   I don't see being able to go home at the end of the day and not feel that devastation of telling a parent that their child didn't make it, or seeing that sweet life go away.  I don't see myself being able to separate work and home the way I would need to be able to do.  I still have awhile to decide because I plan on being at home until Brycen starts school all day.
  I know I would be good at helping women who have struggled with sexual, emotional, or physical abuse.  Or people with thoughts of suicide.  While my experience with physical abuse is minimal, I still think my understanding of it is where it should be.  I also would LIKE to still have a compatible schedule with the kids schedule as far as school hours and summers off.  But that right there is limiting in itself.  I've always wanted to be able to stay at home and experience as much as possible with the kids as they grow.  And I don't for a minute regret staying at home and not following a career path earlier.  I do however feel a little intimidated by the women who are mothers and still career driven.  I feel jealous to see all these women brag about how they have worked their way up and are successful in their careers.  But that jealousy is short lived when I realize the value and love I have for the job I do now.  I will never get these moment back and I'm proud to say, I have been here for every moment thus far!
  I wish I knew though, because I don't want to be starting my schooling (if it requires it) in 5 years.  If I can figure out what I want to do, I can POSSIBLY start the schooling process now.   There is just so much up in the air and things that I am unsure of right now, and I hate that feeling!

Here is a song that motivates me!

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yTCDVfMz15M