I have been processing some of the events that happened, after my secret came out at 14. This man was respected by the community. Nobody ever thought he would do what he was accused of. I was made out to be the problem, the liar! I remember being threatened by one class mate in particular, that said she was going to kick my ass for getting him fired.
I decided I didn't care, and I had the option to be present for what would have been my 8th grade graduation. It wasn't, since we had moved the month before, but I had gone to school with these people for the last 8 years. I came back with a friend for the school day, Laurel Middle School allowed visitors as long as you checked in at office. I went to check in at office, as the sign on the front doors directed you to. As soon as the principal saw me (knowing who I was) he said that they did not allow visitors on school grounds. It was a blatant lie and I was treated so unfairly. I got stares in the hallway, the short time they allowed me inside the school, so maybe in the end it was for my benefit. I was so humiliated, more than I already was, to show my face in the first place. As hard as it was to leave all my friends, my family, the life I knew, it probably was the best thing for me. I couldn't imagine dealing with the bullying and unfair treatment on a daily basis!
All of these events, the way I was treated by people, the harsh things said to me by people in my life, layed the groundwork for the things I believed about myself, believed what I was worthy of, and the way I viewed the world. And its been extremely hard to break, and reshape, what it should have been all along.
This song couldn't relate more to that time of my life!
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Bc6UQHQe-0Y
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